I'm in bed with Jennie Winchester and I realize she wants me to undo her pants. She needs to be home by 11 o'clock and needs to leave my place by 10:45. I'm kissing her but opening my eyes at intervals to catch the clock. At exactly 10:43, I unbutton her Levis and shove my hand inside, barely undoing the zipper.

Jennie picks me up each morning and drives me to school. I spend most of grade ten lunch at her house. She makes me chicken noodle cup-a-soup and has her fingers inside me before I'm finished eating. By March I'm watching Young and the Restless while she does this.