Unfortunately the lower portion
of the ms. is chipped and torn along the fore-edge corner resulting in some loss of
text. This entry under-scores the degree to which Bangs
continued to live in fear of losing his salvation. It is
striking that his spiritual concerns entirely eclipse
the fact that his wedding took place only the day before
on Sunday April 27th. In this
he followed closely in Wesley's own footprints whose
voluminous journal is silent concerning the event of his
own wedding (though not quite as silent on the
subsequent events of his profoundly unhappy marriage).
Archival finding aids suggest that this entry belongs to
the month of March. Although Bangs often miscalculated
the day of the month by one or two, March 28th 1806 fell
on a Friday (as far from a Monday as it is possible to
fall) while April 28th 1806 actually fell on a Monday.
In view of this it seems more likely that this final
entry was made in April rather than in March.