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Wednesday February 6 [5
February 1806]
Since I last wrote I have had constant
employment in my Master's work. O the inconceivable value
[ms. torn] a Redeemer. For these few days past I have had a
humbling sight of myself. It seems that I am less than the
best of God's Servants. I am thankful to get into the valley for
there I find Christ most previous. It is only when we come
out of self that we have the most pleasant view of Jesus.
When we are full of self we can see nothing else that is
beautiful, but alas what a deformed creature it is when
rightly viewed. It serves nevertheless [ms. torn] a bold shade to
set off the Justice and amiableness of Jesus, who is full [of good]ness
and truth. [I] have just finished writing
my experience, which I have enclosed in a letter to my sister
at Niagara, whom I love in the truth. I know not but I have
taken a bold step. I hope however God will except [accept]
of a sincere intention tho it be not the fittest way of
repaying goodness. I take a kind of sweet satisfaction in
reviewing my past life and in enumerating the loving
kindness of God towards me.
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